The Road to Freedom

The Road To Freedom

I am a Jew and being Jewish in these recent times isn’t easy if you are socially and politically aware as I try to be. I have spent many years exploring what it means to be Jewish as a race, as a religion and as a persecuted and nomadic people. It is complex, I can tell you and as a woman who has discarded the religious part of judaism for a more worldly form of spiritual practice having no desire to move to Israel I have never felt more distant from the Jewish aspect of myself. On the other hand it’s not anything I would ever deny, I believe that understanding and owning your heritage is the starting point for your healing journey and that, I feel, is my road to freedom personally and globally.

With the situation in the Middle East growing ever more intense my need to understand what really is going on has reached a point where I found myself joining the Frome Friends of Palestine. This amazing group of people, living in this dynamic and positive Somerset town, really know how to create awareness. In six months I have learned more than I learned in the last 40 years. I have attended some fantastic talks in Frome by Palestinians visiting this country, from people who have been to Palestine and worked as an EAPPI, standing as a witness on the checkpoints in Gaza. This month the group is hosting a talk by lIan Pappé an Israeli historian,  who dared to speak out about the injustices in Palestine. Hounded from his job in Haifa, he now heads the European Centre for Palestinian Studies at Exeter University in the UK. 

It’s a whirlwind that I have stepped into and it is a constant pull on the heart strings. The deeper my involvement the more painful the journey, but there is no turning back and emotional pain for me has always been a sign that I am on the right path as it is always balanced with emotional bliss; tears of joy and sadness are never far away from each other.

Last month I went on the march for Gaza in London. It was my first march since the anti-war march in 2003. It was a good thing to do, although I didn’t feel hugely excited by the gathering. I sensed I was keeping an aloofness for my own protection both physically and psychologically. However, I was soon found out and whilst the march had reached a standstill, a hand belonging to one of the bystanders on the pavement reached out and literally picked me out of the throng. As I looked round to see who owned the hand that had taken a hold of my arm, I saw an old man who, in a kind and gentle way, was pulling me towards him.

“I presume, you are Jewish” the man said, half as a question but actually as a statement.

“Yes” I replied, 

“Thank you, thank you “ he said. I told him it was something I knew I had to do and that we all needed to do, Jewish or not. He was an Egyptian, living in England for some 30 years but his generosity of spirit and depth of gratitude drew me to tears. We talked for a short while and hugged and I went on my way knowing that this was the main purpose for my coming on this march.

There is no easy solution to ending the violence between the Israelis and the Palestinians, for what is at the heart of it is a deep seated hatred for one’s own brother and that cannot be changed or healed over night. For me, the first step as a Jew, is to begin by clearly making the distinction between being a Jew and being an Israeli and to say ‘not in my name.’

However, this is a global problem. The traumas the Jews suffered during the Second World War left them damaged and scarred (whether you came through the holocaust, or were one of their descendants or you simply carry a sense of guilt for surviving, few remain unscathed) and the Camp David agreement set up by the West for the peoples of the Middle East positioned the new Israeli Jews in amongst the Arab nations, like a caged, injured dog surrounded by a pack of angry wolves. Over the years Israel has been nurtured by America and has now grown physically strong but its people still bear all the emotional scars of its past and they are now, in their position of strength, playing out all the traumas they experienced on their, now weaker, neighbours, their Palestinian brothers. 

The extent to which they are playing out a repeat of their, and the world’s, experience of the war is uncanny and very unnerving. When the wall started going up at the beginning of the century I admit I was shocked but not enough, I confess, to do any more. Now I have been made aware of the how extensively the wall snakes through Palestinian land cutting villages off from each other, making the impact on travel, work and communications arduous and damaging on such a small race of people, I find it hard to stay silent. As the Israelis continue to land grab from the Palestinians, they ‘protect’ them by putting their second class homes behind cages whilst they build their high quality houses all around them. Echoes of the wartime Ghettos in Poland resound in my ears as I watched a utube video of an Israeli woman repeatedly whispering abuse through the wire at a Palestinian woman who was merely trying to get her son back behind the cage so he wouldn’t get hurt. 

Hamas have grown as a retaliation to all this and their continued bombing has fueled the fire and left empathy for the Palestinians in the firing line too.

The stories are many and unless you go there yourself, or talk to someone who has, you do not see the both sides of the story. I know the late Joan Rivers said she knew what was going on as she went to Israel, but did she visit the West Bank or Gaza? I kind of imagine she wouldn’t have or she would have realized the huge extent of human rights abuse that is going on under the Israelis’ noses. I’m sure most of the Israelis are not aware of these abuses either, they just live in their world, scared and in pain, justifying their actions from this wounded place. However, there are those that are and it is this anger on both sides that we have to work with. We have to understand, from an objective position, that there must be no blame on either side for this to move forward into a positive healing situation. There is history of violence on both sides and at some point the table needs to cleared so reconciliation can begin. We made it happen in South Africa so it is possible here if we decide that it is.

I believe life offers us situations and that we have the chance to make choices to raise the situation out of the pain and suffering or we can continue to live in a place of stuck energy, perpetuating the cycle of abuse. I believe that Jerusalem is felt, by all the three main religions concerned here, to be the spiritual heart of the Earth. I believe that the heart reflects the whole and if the heart of the world is in pain and conflict then that is going to be played out throughout the whole planet. These religions, Christian, Judaism and Islam, I also believe, have all descended from Abraham (Isaac and Ishmael were his two sons) therefore they are all brothers. We are seeing the playing out of the story of Cain and Abel here in Israel and so all around the world. This story is symbolic of the conflict we carry within ourselves and I believe it is up to us, one by one, to choose to heal our own pain and help others see this healing so they can make that choice too. When we learn to love ourselves truly then we can learn to love our brother.

I would like to see all three religions coexisting in peace in Jerusalem as man has been able to do in the past. If we can’t make this reflect from the heart of the Earth out then we will have to start from the outside in. 

This is a global journey, it is huge and it might seem like an impossible mountain to climb but we all have a part to play and once it really starts the growth is exponential and rapid. The sooner we take our own step onto the Road to Freedom the sooner we’ll all get there.

To Live In Interesting Times

To Live In Interesting Times

We all know the saying and I don’t believe mankind has ever lived in more interesting times as now. As the opportunity to raise ourselves out of a world of fear, corruption and pain becomes ever closer the investigation into our shadow selves as well as our magnificence reaches its pinnacle. The more intense the battle seems the closer we are to the moment of truth. All our apocalyptic films show this and just looking around us the truth of this is in inescapable. It is said that the darkest point of the night is just before the sun begins to rise.

As we herald the wonderful people in our world who are standing up and becoming giants, fighting amazing fights and winning great battles against corruption and oppression it is not surprising that at the same time the dark aspects of humanity is also raising its ugly head. Our closets need to be cleared completely. How we deal with these issues is in our hands. Again and again we are asked to choose between love and compassion or anger and judgement.

Whilst trying to find a passage in “The Prophet’ by Kahn Gibran (for something completely different which incidentally wasn’t there!?) I came across this:

“Then one of the judges of the city came forth and said, Speak to us of Crime and Punishment

And he answered saying..........

......Oftentimes I have heard you speak of one who commits a wrong as though he were not one of you, but a stranger unto you and an intruder upon your world.

But I say that even as the holy and the righteous cannot rise beyond the highest which is in each one of you,

So the wicked and the weak cannot fall lower than the lowest which is in you also.

And as a single leaf turns not yellow but with the silent knowledge of the whole tree,

So the wrong-doer cannot do wrong without the hidden will of you all.

Like a procession you walk together towards your god-self.

You are the way and the wayfarers.

And when one of you falls down he falls for those behind him, a caution against the stumbling stone.

Ay, and he falls for those ahead of him, who, though faster and surer of foot, yet removed not from the stumbling stone.”

When I had dried my tears I remembered the scientist’s view of the world as a hologram that says that each part cannot be divided from the whole; it carries its entirety within it. As we are all mirrors of the initial singularity, like the human egg cell that divides billions of times to create the wonderful variety of each of different cells of the human body, so are we all connected and carry the vibration of everyone within each other. 

When a father jumped out of a hotel window with his two children some years back I was disturbed to hear how many people I considered to be liberal and open-hearted reacted. The idea of bringing back hanging was not far from people’s lips. I asked my friends to hold back on judgement until we had heard more of the story. 

Deepak Chopra’s words are always in my mind in moments like these as he says that everyone is always doing their best with what they have to work with at any given moment. Over the following weeks, as the news revealed how there was already a history of suicide in the man’s family and that his marriage and business was failing all at once, compassion for the man began to emerge. 

I believe we are all from the light and that no one steps into the shadow versions of themselves unless circumstances cause them to close down their hearts and turn away from the light. When celebrities, who have offered many wonderful things to society for many years and are then discovered to have dark histories, is it so surprising? When the world we have created offers such power, free of boundaries, to those in high places and because that which has pushed a man to become great is often the same trigger or trauma that causes the shadow within them to become strong, is it for us to judge? Remembering also that when we look at ourselves, knowing that we have not explored the greatest good or the greatest shadow of ourselves but know we have not been perfect, how can we honestly throw stones from our glass houses when others are drawn to the very edges of their personas.

I do believe no one acts out pain on others without having pain afflicted on themselves. As they are only mirroring aspects that we hold within us (as Kahn Gibran so eloquently states) it is down to us to look into our hearts and know that people who have suffered trauma and cause trauma are victims as much as perpetrators. We can choose to continue throwing them into jail where their own sense of judgement is ratified and they remain in their pain and so will continue to inflict pain on others, or we can find compassion for ourselves, forgive ourselves and so find the will to be compassionate and forgiving towards others. 

Punishment is never an answer, it simply continues the cycle. We must start reviewing our penal system and look to ways of creating a new system that uses healing, forgiveness and compassion to start breaking this cycle. Such a thing has already worked in places such as South Africa with amazing results. We have the tools to heal the darkest of souls, they just need to be offered the chance to turn around so they can see the light more easily. Whether we realise it or not, it’s what we all crave and it is time to acknowledge that each of us holds the power, to choose to be the change, in our hands, or rather in our hearts.

Unity Now!

Towards the end of last year I had a growing sense that at last the change that I had been hoping for since I was 15 years old and particularly since the new Millennium arrived, was possible. 

Having finished the third book by Neale Donald Walsh "Conversations with God' in October of last year and hearing Russell Brand interviewed by Paxman I knew that bigger energies were at play here.

I began asking around to see what was already in place but had trouble connecting with anything substantial. So, I had an idea of putting out something myself to see what I could bring in. I thought about creating a facebook page that would start trying to link up all the people I knew thought like me, to create a body of people all working for change for the better.

With the Universal energy working alongside me it wasn’t long before I was sent a link to a website that had just been put up that is already starting to do all that I was hoping to do, called UnityNow. 

I immediately contacted them and now I am excited to join forces with them. 

Below is a piece I put together after my first meeting with the founders of this wonderful project. I hope you’ll read it and visit and connect with their website.

Please then pass it on so we can build a larger community that will by its nature begin to bring change to our world.

I would love to hear any response you have to this and am more than happy to discuss this further.

Thank you

All love Vicki x 

I Have a Dream

I have a dream 

   I am aware that when we dream everything that we dream is us

   Everything is our thoughts reflected back at ourselves in the form of the story of the dream 

   I am now aware that our living reality is exactly the same 

   As our scientists now tell us, we are all connected by this cosmic interconnected golden web of atoms and electrons. 

   We have all come from the same spark of life 14 billion years ago and so every atom is ourselves looking back at us and our life story, that we are constantly dreaming, or rather creating, reflects this.

So when I say ‘I have a dream’ I am saying that I am choosing to create a new reality for myself 

   and therefore everyone 

and I have chosen that in this new reality I, and therefore we, deserve better.

Because I believe that many others are also choosing this reality, I know that it is possible because we have brought in this amazing internet world, this amazing world, wide web, to facilitate this. 

   the Internet is simply a physical manifestation of how we now understand the universe works

   Its creation has come about at this time because we are now ready to make the choice to be connected in the physical world in a way that reflects how we already are in the higher dimensions.

I have a dream and in this dream we as a human race choose to connect in a way that serves us all, in a way that brings us altogether as one in a state of love and harmony. 

   As always, we humans, when we create something new, have a choice whether we use it in a way that serves us or in a way that doesn’t.

To achieve this state of unity, enough of us have to choose to love ourselves and forgive ourselves for our past stories completely 

   as by loving and forgiving ourselves we are loving and forgiving everyone 

and move forward into a place of peace, into a place where everyone has enough. This is already a reality we simply have to choose it to make is our reality now. 

As Tony Benn said “If we have enough money to kill people then we have enough money to help people.”

Please join me in choosing this new reality as we start to join up all the dots and connect to this group.

 

UnityNow is a non-profit, politically, socially and culturally non-partisan organisation, championing the joint interest of all humans and all life on this planet.

www.unitynow.co.uk and on facebook

Reconnecting with the Astrological Landscape

A is for Aries                                  The beautiful landscape of the Mendips                     The abundant Bronze Age mines near Priddy

Reconnecting with the Astrological Landscape

It's May and Spring has finally arrived. I think there is a growing consensus that we are being cheated of our warm weather seasons as Spring is arriving ever later and Winter seemed to be upon us in November last year. For me I always need to find reasons for everything and if I'm not sure of anything the land is where I go to find wisdom and answers to my questions.

I have my moon in Taurus, that means that the energy of Taurus lies within the heart of who I really am. It is also my north node which is where I am headed if I choose to move out of the stuckness I am holding in my south node: the past life issues I keep repeating. Taurus is all about abundance and being able to receive it from the land. It is ruled by our Earth. So Mother Nature is a key player here and I'm blowed if I'm going to miss out on the lesson this time.

For the past year I have been immersing myself in the energy of love, having found a wonderful new life partner and I realised that perhaps my mind has been off the track a little. However, to reel me back in, last month I was very excited to be part of the launch of a new book. Its called 'Signs and Secrets of the Glastonbury Zodiac' and contains 31 essays. These range from in-depth analysis to poetry and personal experiences (which is my contribution) on walking the Glastonbury landscape. Katherine Maltwood began investigating the idea of 'as above, so below' and with the help of obliging RAF men in WW1 and portable cameras the Universe synchronised events so that the landscape could be studied from an arial view point. From 1917 onwards a complete map of the constellations of the stars was found in the land, created by rivers, roads and other natural landmarks.  By walking the figures amazing things begin to happen and I have talked much about it in my essay and in my book 'Journey to the Golden City' which I hope will be published soon. 

I have been walking this landscape a little since 2009 when I became aware of it, but for the last year, as I said, my mind had been taken of it. So after feeling very stuck with the long, cold winter we all experienced and with the launch of this beautiful book inspiring me once more to reconnect with it, I set out in April to revisit the Aries walk. 

Aries is the first month in the astrological calendar and is all about birth, the creative spark and fire. It is ruled by the astrological figure of the ram. As soon my partner and I arrived in the roadside area of the Aries walk we could here gunshots repeatedly echoing around the landscape. Someone was having a clay pigeon shoot and we had immediately found the fire aspect of our walk. When I arrived I was not expecting anything more than a lovely walk in some woodlands with perhaps some ideas coming to me as we walked, that is usually how I work. However, my new partner was new to all this and needed some coaxing and help to understand what it was all about. The universe was obviously deciding to give us the big picture version and we were in for some fun. As we walked a little further we came across a field of sheep and there were many spring lambs leaping around and enjoying themselves. At first I wasn't sure, but as we looked closer we realised all the lambs had horns. Now I live in the country and every year there are lambs in the field opposite my house but I'd never seen this before! But yes, there they were, little ram lambs especially for us on our Aries walk. 

As we got deeper into the woods the energy was very beautiful with a wonderful light created by the sun we were only just getting used to seeing and then we came across the tree I've shown as my first photo above. It was a definite A for Aries and the doorway was inviting us to step through. It was an invitation to rebirth into the new energy of 2013 and an opportunity not to be missed.

Following that walk, some aspects that had been stuck began to be forced into motion and Taurus arrived with its invitation to recognise the abundance that is everywhere in our lives. 

I am about to leave the Mendips after having lived here for eight years and my partner had a life changing holiday to the Mendips when he was eleven which ensured that he moved West after being brought up near London. Priddy is a very special village in the Mendips with some ancient archeological ruins from burial mounds to bronze age mines. Last week, still in Taurus, we walked this landscape in the beautiful May sunshine and without thinking I chose to step off the path at one point only to come across this amazing ancient mine which my partner had seen on a television programme about the history of this area. I had stumbled across the largest mine, seen in my third photo above, where such abundance was brought up from the earth. I couldn't help but chuckle. I truly hope that I am in the process of finding my abundance, though I must recognise that it's not that it needs finding, it is always there, it's about being open enough not to block it and allow it step fully into your life. I am now ready for this. Hoorah!

Having sorted out my personal questions for the moment I needed to revisit my original question: why are we  having to deal with more cold months while our warm months are getting fewer? I can only answer now that I feel that as the winter months are about the spiritual journey, the time when we hibernate, reflecting Mother Nature as she breathes in, when we go in and find the inner path. This time is in opposition to the Spring and Summer months where we concentrate on the physical growth of form, on youth, reflecting Mother nature as she breathes out her energy of growth. However, if you get caught up in that energy and forget the other side of the wheel this can lead us to forget our spiritual path. Perhaps we are being asked to spend more time investigating that inner, spiritual journey for without it we are doomed to a life of fear and individualistic, destructive power rather than a world of community that is rewarded by our connection to Mother Earth and her healing gifts of abundance. 

Peace or Conflict

Peace or Conflict

I have always been in conflict about war. Since the tender age of 14 when the Falklands War began I felt alone in the horror that we could be going to war. I have always felt that there must be another, better way. But no, in the so called Modern age of 2013, we still resort to fighting over who has the biggest toys. I say ‘we’ as I am talking about both men and women here as we all carry the energy of the masculine and feminine within us and there lies the conflict. Until we can resolve our conflict within then we will never resolve it without. 

About 10 years ago I read a book called “Emissary of Light” by James Twyman. In it he discovers a group of beings watching over a war zone and holding the space for peace. He is drawn in and shown how he can spread this news. It has been his mission ever since to bring peace to the world. This stirred something huge in me and my work ever since has revolved around this idea that we have the power and the ability within to choose peace over conflict.

As I sought out wisdoms and ancient teachings, knowledge of the chakras that we hold in our aura helped me to understand how we, in our Western culture, have shut down our desire to understand anything beyond the physical body and so shut down our chakras. With this loss of connection to higher energies comes great fear, which we hold when our root chakra is closed, and it has affected every corner of our lives beginning with fear of death, to fear of old age until it has seeped down to how we bring up our children and our ridiculous ‘health and safety’ laws. Basically we have become fearful of life itself.

Fear often keeps us in a place of non action saying ‘there’s nothing that can be done, it’s always been like this’. But life is a cycle. We rose out of the feudal system, but it took the plague and great devastation to force us to revolt. Keeping us happy, en masse, so that we will not choose to revolt again is a complex affair and war is very much a part of that recipe. I will not attempt to go into the intricacies of economics or the psychology of hate, the idea of divide and separate that allows us to even contemplate killing our fellow human beings, but it’s all there. For me, the sooner we wake up to fact that we don’t have to partake in this crazy story the better.

Edward De Bono has spent his life dedicating himself to teaching people to find an alternative way of thinking and if there was ever a need for a body of people, a council for peace, we would certainly benefit from his presence on it. The same would apply for James Twyman, the Dalai Lama, Jimmy Carter and so on. We have so many good people and that’s just the men. The women who can help tend not to be our leaders for they have often given up much of their femininity to jostle their way to the top. Looking back on the time when Thatcher took us to war confirms my feelings of distress for what we have lost. I truly feel we now need strong women not women trying to be strong men.

With the possibility of war that is rearing its ugly head over North Korea I am writing this in April and astrologically we have entered Aries: the great god of war. As, I understand, we have all come from the first spark of life, which is the nature of Aries, every atom in the universe is derived from that original singularity and so is a reflection of it. I have, with the help of the work of A. T. Mann built this idea into my work that a mirror can be found in all things and all journeys through life. In this way Aries, as the sign of Spring, is the birth of the seasonal year, and this also reflects the beginning of our life and the first chakra, the root chakra. This means that the energy of war is also deeply connected to the energy of fear.

We have been kept in fear over the threat of nuclear war for too long now. Even though we all know that no one believes that a country will start a war like that, if that is the case then why are we even playing with fire like this. It is monster we have created that is really beyond our control. We cannot keep these weapons telling others who and who may not have them. It is a dangerous game and the only way to stop it is to begin a gradual disarming programme and offer real peace to this world. Great Britain is in a prime position to start the ball rolling but that’s another story. 

If we must fight I would like the populace to stand up and fight for peace, equality and enough food and warmth for all. We could take to the streets but I don’t believe enough people are aware of the unfair deal that has been dealt to them or else they are so caught up in their own pain they do not have the energy to stand up and fight.

Personally I believe, it is up to the individual who has the desire for change to begin doing the work within. 

It is my desire that we join together as a body of powerful positive energies to bring a new presence onto this Earth; to ‘be the change’. This is not a new idea I know but one that keeps needing to be stated.

A few years ago I became aware of the fact that meditation can bring great changes to our environment. I learnt how meditation can affect the state of water and how molecules that were polluted had been transformed to being clear and crystal-like in appearance. We are 70% water and meditation can make the same transformation in all of us. 

I am inviting everyone who believes there is even a hint of a possibility in this to take a moment each day to send love and healing thoughts to North Korea. Even if you have never tried to meditate before just to spend a few moments each day with this intention is enough. To simply imagine your purest idea of love, to imagine sending it without any hint of anger, hate, fear or blame to all the people in North Korea that positive intention will make a difference. If enough people can activate this energy we can make a change on a huge scale. I know this this is not the first time something like this has been tried, however, this could really work if it is spread far and wide with positive intent. 

The invitation is to be a part of a grand movement for change, to choose love and peace over death and war. First we have to choose it for ourselves, choose to love ourselves and find inner peace. If you can truly do that then there is no room for hate for anyone else in the world. Once you know that the whole universe is one, that everything is connected like a golden web of threads linking every atom, every person and so on, then someone on the other side of the world is as much a part of who you are as the person you have chosen to live your life with. The human race is like one body and every atom in that body needs to be loved as a whole. I would love people to see that a life is never saved by the death of another. Let’s not cut the people of North Korea, or any other country for that matter, out of our ability to love. We need to rediscover this pure energy that lies deep within us, knowing that it contains no anger, blame or distrust and send it primarily to North Korea but there need be no limits. With the two amazing truths, the effect of meditation on our beings and the connecting power of the Internet that uses this understanding that the universe is a huge golden interconnecting web, we can choose to make huge changes if we bring them together.

Please join me with love and share this to all your contacts. Let’s see how wide we can get this message across the air waves.

Namaste.

Alchemy Of Spring

  Alchemy Of Spring

It’s Spring, so the calendar informs us, but I’d never have guessed it. With the threat of snow for the weekend ahead one might have easily mistaken this for January. Any other year and we’d probably be quite excited about the prospect but this year has been a tough one for many already. My last blog was so upbeat, as I cast my mind back, I’m wondering where I got all my energy from.

However, if my body is tired of trying to keep warm and my mind is busy and feeling exhausted as it tries to keep those upbeat ideas from vacating my thoughts, my heart is still strong and beating as solidly as ever. Thank goodness for that! I just received an image by email showing how the heart is 100,000 times stronger electrically and 5,000 times stronger magnetically than the brain. So by choosing to live our lives heart first we stand a much better chance of getting through the tough times and enjoying the good. It’s an all round good life choice.

I’ve just finished reading Natalie Fee’s ‘The Everyday Alchemist’s Happiness Handbook’. It’s such a joy to read. You know that she lives by her words as her happiness radiates out from every page and I’m not talking about a superficial sense of ‘everything’s fine’ but a deep inner knowing and contented feeling of connection and joy. Although when I read the book I knew there was nothing I didn’t already know, it was just wonderful hearing it again through Natalie’s individual filter.     

This helped me no end as I travelled to Brighton for the weekend to embark on a new venture. The venture was a collaboration with the wonderful work of Caroline Carey and her Alchemy in Movement, yes more alchemy. This seems to be the theme for the year and as we have entered the year of the snake Caroline showed me her pet snake and taught me how it goes into a trance like state just before it sheds its skin. You can recognize this by its blue eyes. At this point the snake goes through a process of transmutation, not transformation as I ignorantly suggested. This is exactly what we are being invited to do, we are not going to transform as the caterpillar transforms into a butterfly, we are simply going to shed our skin and step into a new and higher vibration of ourselves, retaining our existing form. How beautiful it was to be offered that visual metaphor.

I have been offering my sound and chakra meditation workshop for a year or two now and to join forces with Caroline and add the magic ingredient of movement, I knew this could only be a positive step forward. 

When, many years ago, I conceded how slow I was being in getting into yoga, something I most certainly needed, a friend reassured me by explaining that the meditation I was doing was as good as the physical work. In a way I totally agree and the years I spent just applying myself to meditation I did free up a good deal of physical tension and clear many blocks I was holding onto. 

However, there is nothing like getting off one’s arse and unlocking the energy that we hold so tightly in our bodies. Allowing the body to express itself is probably more important than giving the mind a voice, something we hold so dear in our society without truly understanding what we really need.

As we worked our alchemy inviting our guests to clear, express and sound our emotions to the accompaniment of harp, drum and flute I felt we were sowing a seed I have long been needing to sow.

Thank you to Caroline and all those who have helped me reach this moment in my alchemical development. 

www.keystothegoldencity.com

Welcome 2013!

Welcome 2013!

So here we are in 2013 and happy New Year to you. I hope you've had a good festive season, whatever you do at the this time of year, and are ready to start 2013 with a cheerful heart and renewed enthusiasm. Easy to say, not so easy to do when Spring seems so far away and the nights still draw in so early. In just a few weeks time we have Imbolc, a much forgotten festival, there to reignite our flame and celebrate the first signs of Spring. I will certainly be lighting a candle to begin bringing these ancient gifts back into our lives.

So what is this year all about? When I first heard all about Solstice 2012 about twelve years ago, I  believed there was going to be huge shifts and changes on a massive scale. As time progressed I began to see that this is just part of the human psyche and our desire for the dramatic. However, I do believe these shifts are happening although they are on a more subtle level and what we think of as over night transitions, or changes in a blink of an eye, is possibly more like 300 years in the bigger picture. This length of transition is what the astrologers and the I Ching foresee.

For me this year is all about choice. With my interest in the world of science, the quantum field and the Schroedinger's Cat theory has taught me that anything is possible. In fact, everything is not only possible, but actually happening all at once. It's up to us which road we choose. Happiness is a choice and soon as we decide to step through that gateway we can choose the positive road at every cross road, it all depends on how we choose to view it. 

When I was offered a healing which removed my creative block, in 2001, the first song I wrote, or rather received, in the form of a dream, was called 'Living the Days of Love'. Immediately I understood that is what we are doing now, it's not about the future. Now I believe the gateway is fully open and I intend to make this year a year of love.
To learn to totally love, forgive and thank yourself for your journey so far is not always so easy, but is totally necessary to move forward into a place of harmony with everything in your world around you.
I chose this journey 12 years ago and I am finding the process is constantly intensifying. What we view as 'bad' or 'negative' is totally a view we hold, not a truth. Understanding and letting go of the judgement we hold about deeds acted out from a state of pain is the only way we move forward. The more we can forgive ourselves, the more we can forgive others. The more we can love ourselves, the more we can love others. What might seem like a quantum leap only needs to start with a step and the first step is about believing that it's possible.
That is my mantra for this year: that the gateway be opened to begin this quantum leap to make 2013 the beginning of a whole new way of being.